Rapper Typhoon Is Candid About His Dark Thoughts: “It’s Really Gone Dark”

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With Typhoon and singer Stef Bos, Simon returns to the deep valleys of their lives. For example, Simon remembers Typhoon going through a lot during Friends Van Amstel. “I found you deep inside,” Simon tells the rapper. “I was in such an existential crisis. It was over. It was injury time, penalties had been played and then I tried to play a whole tournament, ”he says metaphorically. The rapper says that after the Friends of Amstel, “the curtain” fell for him. “It really got dark. And it turned into depression. And even with the idea of ​​not wanting to be there anymore.”

Typhoon remembers a time when he even considered killing himself. “I was in the mountains in Switzerland with some friends. We hiked and I thought I was doing a lot better then. I dropped them off for a hike because I couldn’t do it at all. And I saw a cliff and thought, you know what, I’m fine.

While telling this story, Typhoon becomes emotional. “Fortunately, there was something inside me that told me that wasn’t the solution.” According to the rapper, his friends and also therapy saved him from his dark thoughts. “I also say it during my shows: guys if you are twice a week at the gym for your body, then also at the gym for you mind. Because we need it.”

Fortunately, Typhoon can now say that things are going well. The love of his life, Marie, is therefore his great support and his refuge. “We are not the solution to each other’s past. (…) We have the same desire to be a lover and in this we can support and help each other. That is why it is right and c That’s why I’m standing here today.”

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